How She Smiled...:)

Today morning she wake up with tears. She said to mom.."Khala feeling vomiting". Ami taken her to the lounge and asked her to take deep breathing. she did same but in few moments she was complaining same thing.  I awoke said fajar and recited Quran and looked at her. Her expression was just like that she is near to cry. I talked to her but her expressions were same. I taunted why u looking sad? whats wrong now? d't know Aapii why i am feeling this.her voice was distorted. Change your expressions. This d't look good on ur face. I asked her. She started weeping. My mother  got worried asked what happened suddenly? .."khala dil ghabra rha hy"She replied while weeping okay ill take you to the Doctor after breakfast. Mom was trying to relax her. I was listening and watching all.. no need to take her to the Doctor. She is okay. She was weeping last night now all her body parts are upset because she was upset. Now her stomach didn't work properly. food is not digested properly. she just need to be happy. Only in this way her body parts will start work properly. I said all with loud voice. She was looking at me. Get up also i switched of T.V. Rice and Asif (Ansar brother) was watching cricket Match. Tell ur aapi Ansar how to play cricket.I asked to my cousin and brother they got happy i lead them in the courtyard . There we started to play cricket. Initially she was hesitating.When i given bat in her hand she started playing. I was doing fielding. Rice was bowling her. She was playing and i was watching her continuously. Gradually her feeling was getting better. Once she hit the ball and it went over my head and hit badly Asif 's face. She laughed so loudly. It was really amazing for me it happened so sudden her smile was given relief to me. As I myself was worried what to do why she is behaving in this manner. I made her not even smiled but she laughed at her act when she hit Asif's face with her shot. Few minutes ago she was weeping badly and i was worried why she is feeling depress in morning. I said Thanks to Allah he is helping me in my all efforts what im doing for her. Wish I could make all people smile who are depress or they need help. wish i could be always there to help them

Phir Yu Hua k Gher ko Dil sy Laga lya

Tujh se bichar k hum b muqadar k ho gaye..
Phr jo b darr mila,usi darr k hogaye..
Phr younh hoa k ghair ko dil se lga lia..
Andar wo nafratien thee k bahar k hogye..
Kya loag thay k jan se bhrh k aziz thay
Ab dil se mehav nam b aksar k hogye
Aye yad e yar tujh se kraien kya shikaiyten,
Aye dard e hijer hum b tu pather k hogye!

Log Kehtay Hen. . .

These days spending with my cousin.she came to my home on my call. It was strongly needed to call her as her condition was very pathetic. . Psychologically she developed symptoms of conversion disorder.If i concern about her history, her past life was favorable to convert her health in this psychological problem.She is my khala's daughter.. (Afsana's sis). . .Her name z ansar. .Ansar birth order is 3rd.Afsana's 2nd. And eldest was saima.Saima died few years ago.saima was 1year elder to me.My khala was living in a village when saima was alive.There was no facility of health and schooling in that village.Saima's death was because of polio disease.When she died her left body was paralyzed.Her death was very painful for her family.As when she died it was night.Her condition was bad.All of her siblings were sitting around her bed.She was crying'my khala ws sitting at her head side.Other were sitting besides and reciting surah yaseen.Saima's sibling were also crying.khaloo was tearful but he was seeking for ambulance.But he failed to safe her daughter's life. Saima died in her mom's arms that night.Ansar, afsana saw this moment of death when they were so young. being so young and to see sister death was not so easy . this left very bad image on their minds. saima's death broke my khaloo into pieces. he couldn't get well after his beloved daughter.there was no source of income after khaloo's illness. Days passed and Ansar was sent to my nana jaan's home she started her schooling there.She passed her metric. Then her mom came and said to her we have to move to te pindi to get jobs as khaloo was unable to bear expenses of his family. Ansar and khala and others salma and Asif also left the village for their bright future. Ansar started job but didn't left her studies. She carried on her studies with the job. little salma refused to study further. Ansar taken this matter serious she forced her sis to keep her studies with the job. but it was not possible to insist her for studies. so Ansar stopped her further efforts. All these circumstance weakened her nerves. As the days was passing the power to bear family troubles was reduced. Afsana was engaged to my cousin in those days. but my cousin couldn't fulfill his commitment with afsana. He got married with another lady in Attock. This was another jerk to that family. Ansar again taken this issue very serious. She started hating people especially relatives and maternal side. Whenever i tried to tell her that you are wrong she said yes aaappi we wrong thats why all people do wrong with us. My sis saima died no body felt responsibility to give their family any kind of support. Afsana's heart broken because we are poor.Despite of all these things luckily last year in December Afsana got married we all were very happy. Afsaana became a mother of two kids in this Ramdan  another good thing.but Ansar couldn't understand herself. She was sufferings from so many complexes. She couldn't clear her mind. I never thought that she will become so serious. Few days ago i saw my mom she was talking on phone. She seemed to be worried . I didn't ask I knew my mom will tell me herself if anything is troubling her. Next day i again saw her on phone she was talking to my khala. when phone ended mom told me Ansar eye sight is gone... I said what?? how it happened she said d't know. next day again khala called and said that her eye sight partially back. she can  see hardly anything, but huge things are visible to her. I thought there may be any medical reason. I didnt ask further. khala used to call mom daily. The very next day khala said i m taking her to the peer in SAHALA. Afsana referred khala to that peer.Ansar agreed to go there. That peer was fake. He said to khala, your daughter's body control is in control of a witch. that witch is married now she will never leave her. peer sahab was palmist too:) he checked ansar hand's lines and turned to khala and told her " your daughter have no fate.. her life have no happiness...she will have attack of palsy soon....".khala was silent. again peer sahab said she(ansar) is the one who is resposible of all of your(kahala's ) family troubles. khala didn't say anything she said koi elaaj peer sahab?? he wrote some taweez and given to khala and said give this her daily. but i see no improvment in her life. kahla came back and phoned to ami. Ami got worried and told all situation to me. i was angry on khala that why she taken her to that peer. at that time again phone rang mom picked up. khala was weeping she said Ansar screaming she is feeling numbness in her legs. ami said give phone to her. Ansar was crying badly. she got frightened because of that peer. i talked to her but she continuously crying and saying aappi..ill die what is my fault i didn't do anything why people are blaming me??? aapii my body is trembling my mind is totally blank im  having severe headache . i said nothing bad will happen .Your environment is making your condition bad. she stopped crying and said aapi people say here i have some kind of psycho problem. I said nooo my dear you are alright. you are so brave, you are earning and bearing your expenses yourself. you are courageous lady. She listened silently she said that why my body is out of control? and peeer sahab??? I said forget everything u just need to change ur environment. You are fighting like men. and this is against nature. God made men to earn money and made women to take care of her home. But you are doing so many things simultaneously and also some trouble of you life like afsana's issue and saima's death have stress upon ur mind.and now your body is reacting because of all  these stresses.During talk on phone i felt all my these comments were making her relax . Because her voice was getting clear. She replied okay aapi i'll come tomorrow i'll spend some days at your home. U'll treat me well because u know me well than any other person.Now she is living with me from one week. wish i could make her relax. as she trusted me and came from pindi. she is on leave from her company.Her owner and colleagues call her daily and asks abouit her health, they also says thanks to me that im helping her.May ALLAH bless her.Aameen

Rain..

What I am doing right now..Rainyday reminds so many things