December

Dcmbr Jb B Ata Hy
Vo Pgli PhR Sy
Beety Mosm Ko Yad Krt¡ Hy

PuRany Card Prht¡ Hy
K J¡S Me OsNy L¡Kha Tha

ME LOTON GA DCMBR ME

NyE Kpray Bnat¡ Hy
Vo Sara Ghr Sjat¡ Hy

DcmBr K Hr 1 D¡N Ko
Vo G¡N G¡N K Bitat¡ Hy

JoNh¡ 15 Guzrt¡ Hy
Vo Kch Kch Tot Jat¡ Hy

Mgr PhR B PuRan¡ Album Ko KhoL Kr Maz¡ Ko BuLat¡ Hy

Nh¡ MaLom Ye Osko
K Beetay Wqt K¡ KhushyaN Boht TakLif Det¡ Hen

MehaZ D¡L Ko Jlat¡ Hen

YuNh¡ D¡N Beet Jaty Hen

DcmBr Lot Jata Hy
Mgr
Vo KhusHfehm Lrk¡
DoBara Sy CalendR Men

DCMBR K Mah¡Ny K Safhay Ko Mor Kr

Phr Sy
DCmBr K Sehr Me Dob Jat¡ Hy

K Akh¡R "Os" Ny L¡Kha Tha

Me Lotoun Ga DCMBR Me.

Asgahr Muharaan morrien...sangat na Maan de chorien...

O meda naazneen hey, daadhi garam ..Aaaa teko jhooli chey pawan
Asgahr Muharaan morrien...sangat na Maan de chorien...
jhoolo ujar wanjay taan...sukhiii hondiyan ney Maawan.....
Aaa jaa wey laal Asghar, Jhoola tera jhulawan..
ku rus gya hen maan toon,,,
sadqay men vaari jawan...
Phupiyaan naa Raj k chaaya...behnrain naa raj khidayaa
Aaa mera laal aa jaa, lori teku sunawaaan
ku rus gya hen maan toon,,,
sadqay men vaari jawan...

Mohabat Ki Kahani Me Koi Tarmeem Mt Krna

Mohabbat Ki Kahani Me Koi Tarmeem Mt Krna.

Mujhe Tum Torr Dena Pr Mujhe Taqseem Mt Krna.

Meri Mohabbat Amant He Ise Smbhal Kr Rkhna.

Khayanat Gunnah He, Gunnah-E-Azeem Mt Krna.
Husan Wale Chahne Walon Ko Be Wafa Keh Kr Boht Mehzooz Hote He.

Tum Ham Pr Har Sitam Krna Pr Aisi Taskeen Mat Krna.
Aik Shakhs Ka Hokar Rehna Mohabbat Ki Shaan Hoti He.

Mohabbat Ko Duhra Kar Tum Mohabbat Ki Tauheen Mat Krna.

Aadat

Wo cHaLa Gaya Mujhe ChoOr Kr, Main BadaL saka na Aadaten,
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USay S0chNa
Usay Kh0jna,
Mera Aaj Bhi Mam0oL Hai.

Nasir sleeping

Haqiqat kuch nhe hoti . .

Hmesha sath rhne ki aadat kuch ni hoti

Jo lamhe mil gay ji lo,riyazat kuch nhi hoti

Jise mehromiyan mili hon wohi jan skta hy

Zubani hosla, jhooti murawatt kuch nhi hoti

Kaee rishton ko jb parkha, natija 1 he nikla

Zrorat he sbhi kuch hy,mohabat kuch nhi hoti

Kisi ne chor k jana ho, to phr chor jata hy

Bicharna ho to sadiyon ki rafaqat kuch nhi hoti

Talluq toot jaye to safiny doob jaty hen.

Ye sb kehne ki baten hen, haqiqat kuch nhi hoti.

ALLAH.MUHAMMAD

Nicely written by Mumtaz Mufti #Labbayk

Veer .. #Abu Turaab

Ashk

Mata-E-Zeest banay teray Naqsh e paa ke qasam
wo Ashk jinhen tu ny muskura k dekh liya

kahen tum bhe nazar aao..!

Subha se sham tak humko

Bht se log milte hn
Koi andaz tm jsa

Koi libas tm jsa
Nigahon se gzrate hn
Mgr!

Tm he ni milte

Ye wo hi raste hn
Par,

Inhi raston me jane jaan

Bht bechain phirte hen

Bare betab rehte hen

Dua ko hath uth'te hen

Dua me ye b kehte hen

Lagi ha bheerr logo ki

Mgr is bheer me

Kbi tm b nazar aao

kahen tum bhe nazar aao..!

Downloaded from #fb

 location between Attock and my village. #jhallar

Muhabat

Barbaad krnay ky aur bhe rastay thy Faraz
Naa janay unhien Muhabat ka ku khayal aya . . .

A gift by soulmate

I'm Honored :)

• • Some words made me smile today
    
    
    unhoun ne kaha k aap 10 bjay demo k lye aajaien..hum 3 teachers reh gay thay jinahein unhoun ne call ki demo k lye mera time tha 10:30 to 11:30 mein demo k lye haan krnay hii wali thi k.....itni daair mein tmhaara msg agaya....pta nahi kaisay mein ne unh se kaha theak hai mein aaj hi demo doungi....ar soulmate wo msg meri taqat bn gaya jaanti ho uss k 5 mint baad maam praised me..she said attiya u have been selected mjay smjh hi nahi aaie

Ik Gul k murjhany pr kya Gulshan men kuhraam macha. .
Ik chehra kumlha jany sy kitny dil naashaad huye..

Faiz, na hum yusaf na koi yaqub jo hum ko yaad kry
apni kya, kanaan men rhy ya Misr men ja abad huye. . .

...

Ik dard kabhi,
ik aah kabhi,
ik sooz kabhi, ik thais kabhi,,

Is khana-e-dill men rozana mehman bdaltey rehtey hain..!

Faiz..

Dard esaa k her ragg men hy mehshar barpaa. . .
Aur sakoon esaa hy k marr janay ko jee chahta hy . . .

Pain . .

. . . Unbearable . . .

In Memory of "Sweetsapna_saba"

My First account I made when i was in B.SC..so many memories were associated with this account. Many accounts , blogger , twitter, Facebook I made with sweetsapna_saba...But now from one year this ID is acting like human being..It was not mine anymore. It left me like other people, started hurting and teasing. I was really shocked when people said that they talked to me with this ID even when I was offline. It wasn't me ,,=( My ID was Hacked, though I didn't lost my password yet someone else was using my account, talking to my contacts .. It was strange for me and for my friends but anyhow I manged my account again I even located that person, when i was changing my password ,I saw another ID in my primary e-mail instead of my Gmail ID. I searched that person and found that ID in orkut but that was a lady. I sent Offline messages via yahoo messenger. He replied after two days, he was talking in a strange way, he said sorry for all he did. I blocked him after some conversation but I never forgive him. still I cant forgive him I d't know who is that person how he stole my password. After months my friend Tayyaba found me on web cam. She asked to me u were on web cam? I said NO. I never used web cam . I d't have any web cam. It was Another shock for me,, I was worrying why its happening , some friends told me this might be an error of messenger or yahoo, No need to be worry. But I knew its all in my fate that like other people, my most precious thing My ID which have saved my happy moments of life, is betraying me.. It was last thing that I terminated with my own hands after tayyaba's call. Yes I TERMINATED my first ID. I killed my first love . 1st AUGUST I deactivated "sweetsapna_saba". Even God himself wanted to close this last door forever. And finally I closed. Good bye sweetsapna_saba

Isolation

I'm Isolated Hiding In My Shell I Open Up To None The Walls Once Fell I Could Do Nothing But Run Life's A Masquerade We're All A Fake Be Real And You Fade So Pretend For Your Sake Being Crowded Is Suffocating Being Surrounded Is Just Frustrating They Talk To Me About Things I Hate Can't They See For Friends It's To Late Do You Know It's Alright To Hate Socialization With People I Fight Just For Isolation But One Day I'll Be Alone In My Imagination My Lonely Home  Of My Isolation  (Answer to Soulmate's Questions. I even afraid of u.."tum muje parh leti hoo" )

Paper

Maa says;ladlay eid waly din bhookay hotay hen. .its a phrase actually i think its true . .thats why i always had paper on sunday. .when everyone is asleep and resting .I am experiencing it from first year. .Maa ek bat aur b kehti hy k tum bs apni neend kam krlo sb kam sudhar jayen gy.and i always said mry kaamo ka neend sy kya taluq??Now its about 5:59 . My paper will start @7:30 a.m. .and im sitting here tweeting &blogging . .soulmate is missing . .

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Aey Dil tuje Dushman ke bhe pehchaan kahan... tuu halqa-e-yaaran men bhe Muhtaat raha ker... Pehla sa kahan ab meri raftaar ka aalam... Aey Gardah-e-Dooran zara tham tham k chala kr.... Is Rut Men kahan Phool khileen gy Aey Dil Nadan..?? Zakhmoo ko he wabasta Zanjeer-e-Saba ker.... Is shab k Muqadar men seher he nhe Mohsin... Dekhaa hey kai baar charaghoo ko bujhaa ker...

Some more words.....

Me ne khwb daikha tha.. K me aag k pas baithi hun ar tm sard barish me tnha ho, me tmhain dhond rai hoti hun ar tm mujh se milnay se inkar kr daiti ho

Words of my soulmate. .

Han tmhaien shiskastgi ki khbr hai me janti hn.tm guzri ho.tm guzr rai ho. Me ne aksar tmhain daikha hai k tm sardiyun ki barish me tnha kharhi ho.. Tm nai janti soulmate k atti ya wli dp q lgai me ne

Jhok Ranjhan de jana...Naal Meray koi chalay.........

Ishq

Jis dil andar ishq na rachyaa, kuttay ucthe changay. . . .
Malik dey ghar raakhi krday saabir bhukay nangy. . . .

Dunya tey lakh sangtaan hoyian . .

Jinhan dey baju assi pal nhe saan rehnday. .
O shaklan na yaad raheyaan . . . . .
Bol mitti diya bawaya. . .
Try dukhan ny kaleja ja lya ho . ,

Phir bicharnay kay zamanay aye

Jab bhi hansnay kay zamanay aye
Zakham phir yaad puranay aye

Bar'ha un ko manaya tu humain
Rooth janay kay bahanay aye

Phir mujhay toot kay chaha uss nay
Phir bicharnay kay zamanay aye

Muskara kar humain milnay wallay
Zindagi bhar ko rulanay aye

Kitni mehroom theen neendain un kee
Khawb bhi jin ko jaganay aye

Teri chahat nay theharnay na diya
Raah mein kitnay thikaanay aye

Tu nahi hai tu hawa ka jhoonka
Ghar ke zanjeer hilanay aye

Dil bujha hai na jalay hain khaimay
Aap kiyon jashan mananay aye ?

Issi umeed pay jagoo yaroo !
Aab woh kis waqat na janay aye

Raas aya jinhain sehra *Mohsin*
Un ke kismat mein khazanay aye

Bahoo

Tan man mera purzay purzay. .
Jiwen darzi diyan leeraan..
Ina leeran nal gal kafni paa k
ralsaan sang faqeeran
Baghdad shehr tey tukry mangsan
Bahoo karsaan Meeran Meeran(listening n writing lyrics of it on my cell at midnight)

..tery bagher

Guzar to jaye ge try bagher bhe lekin... Bari udas bari be-qarar guzraay ge....

Dard jeet jata hy. .

'DARD JEET JATA HAI'

Apny milte julte hain,
Sath sath chalte hain,
Sath sath chalne me,
Ranjishain to hoti hain,
Ranjishon me b lekin,
Chahatain to hoti hain,
Chahaton ki b her pal,
Ik ajab kahani hy,
Hont hanste rehte hain,
"Ankhain bheeg jati hain",
Bheegti nigahon me,
Khawab jalte bujhte hain,
Dard k safar me kuch,
Morr aisay aatay hain,
Khawab toot jate hain,
saath choot jate hain,
Kirchiyan uthane me,
Waqt beet jata hai,
Or 'Dard' jeet jata hy....

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just received a msg from cheery..it wasn't a msg it was a bomb blast..i saw my broken pieces after that blast..my heartbeat stopped at that moment.i even cudnt weep..but i want to cry alot..ohh my princess tumhen nazar lag gae...sab to bht khush thy tumhary shadi py....men kitni khush the...i was waiting for ur wedding pics..i saw your husband..i said cheery he z cute like u..his smile is similar to u..but ab tumhary husband ke hansi sy khof aa rha hy muje....i asked for pictures..u said Nig soon u'll upload..cheeery instead of uploading pics u sent a horrible msg..Kitney sakoon sy tumny kaha...men qaail ho gae tumhari himmat ke...pr yaar tumhari dost ka dil ruk gya...im still unable to feel my heartbeat..u said now its done...how it is possible?? how rafi ??im feeeling thorns in my throat...i can't believe..tum jhoot keh rhe the...see my eyes rolling tears for u..see my hands getting cold...how u can give this news to ur nig..im still not normal...shyad tum mazak kr rhe the...mgr esa mazak koi larki nhe krti..phir tum kion kro ge...r mujsy?? mujsy kesy kr skti ho tum...i typed a msg to u..but before receiving my msg ur profile was deactivated..i copied my msg to send u through MSN..see the msg i typed.."inshAllah jo himat magty hen ALLAH unhein himmat deta hy...jo ALLAH sy madad mangty hen ALLAH un k waseelay paida krta hy...jo bhe hota hy uske mrzi sy hota hy...r tum buht bahadur ho...muje yakeen hy poraa ...u my princess...ur sister will wait for u..men bht duaa kro ge..plz apna bht dhyan rkhnaa..r ghbrana nhe...men hon na tumhary sath.."
mgr tum sun lo ge...haan sun lo ge....muje apni feelings py bharossa hy...my heart voice will reach to your heart. n ALLAH pk you know she asked for mercy.Allah shower your blessing on her..I beg you...
Aaj do bar muje ALLAH k faislo py khof any laga hy...Mola tu kitna be-nayaz hy...kitnaaa....

Mein dair tk roti rahe.....

Kal raat janay kiya houa Kuch dair pehlay neend se Kuch ashak milny aa gaye  Kuch khawab bhi tooty houey Kuch log bhi bhooly houey  Kuch rasta bhatki houeen Kuch gard mein lapti houeen  kuch khol mein simti houeen Bayrabt c sochain kai  Bhooli houi baatain kai Eik shaks ki yadain kai  Phir dair tak jagi rahi Sochoon mein gum bethi rahi  Ungli se thanday farsh par Eik naam bas likhti rahi  Kal raat bhi kiya raat thi Kuch dair pehly neend se MAIN DAIR TAK ROTI RAHI.....

Color of paradise,,

Watched This movie clip in training.Advisor sahab played few clips from Movie"color of Paradise" Light was off when we saw this Movie so nobody couldn't c my tears.Now Im watching ful Movie when this clip played i remembered those feeling of few days ago in training hall Islamabad .

Yeh Udaas Udaas....;

Yeh udaas udaas thandak, jo aseer hen pawan mein

kahi'n bijlian na bhar den kisi gosha e chaman mein

yeh ajeeb fasl e gul he k kisi bhi gul ki rangat

na jachi meri nazar mein na rachi tere badan mein

sar e daar bhi pukara lab e baam bhi sadaa di

main kahan kahan na phncha teri deed ki lagan mein

main liye liye phira hun gham e zindagi ka laasha

kbi apni khilwaton mein kbi teri anjuman mein.

Farar...

Apnay mazi k tasawar sy harasaan hoon men..
Apnay guzray huye ayyaam sy nafrat hy muje...
Apni bekaar tamanaaon py shirmindaa hoon...
Apni be-sood umeedo py nadamat hy muje..


Mery mazi ko andhairy men daba rehny do...
Mra mazi mri zilat k siwa kuch nhe..
Mri umeedo ka hasil mri kawish ka sila
Ek be-naam azeeat k siwa kuch nhe...


kitni bekaar umeedo ka sahara ly kr..
Men ny ewaan sajaye thy kisi ke khatir..
Kitni be-rabt tamanaaoon k mubaham khaaky
Ppny khaboo men basaye thy kisi ke khatir..


Muj sy ab mri muhabat k fasany na kaho..
Muj ko kehny do k meny unhenin chaha he nhe,,,
Aur wo mast nighaen jo muje bhool gae..
Men ny un must nighaaon ko saraha he nhe...


Muj ko kehny do men aj bhe jee skta hoon..
Ishq nakaam sahe..zindage naakaam nhe...
Unko apnany ke khawhish unhen paany ke talab..
Shoq bekaar sahe,,saee gham-e- anjaam nhe..


Wohe gaisoo wohi nazreen..wohi aariz wohi jisam..
Men jo chahoon muje r bhe mil skty hen..
Wo kanwal jin ko kbhi un k lye khilna thaa.
Unke nazro sy bht door bhe khil skty hen..

Wafa kay Waday

Wafa k waday wo saray bhula gya chup chaap
wo mery dil ke dewarain hila gya chup chap...
For Atti

Dosti..

Atti said some beautiful words to me last night..i read them so many time.now it z written on my heart....."koi bt nai tm reltnshp bnanay me sifr ho na tu ykin jano is se qatan koi frq nai parhta..hmaray lye TUM EHAM ho..me reltnshp til the End se agay tk le jati hun :-) tm sath na chal ski tu me khud ruk jaoun gi tmhary pas..." atti tmhri r mri dosti men sirf tmhra hath hy.muj py hota to baki logo ke tarah men tmhn b kho deti. . .thanx yar

Some love from someone ...

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AOA

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how r u?

 7/2/11 1:44):

yar y u are afraid tell me na

(7/2/11 1:44):

agr koi problem hai then u can share yar

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but if u think k tumara decision right hai then theek i'll not force u

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n luv u sooo much

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n an important thing

(7/2/11 1:44):

i don't wana "MISS" u ok???

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so plz atleast yahan zaroor keep in touch rehna 

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i'll wait for ur reply

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u know u was the 1st one i added as a friend at fb from ning

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so u can consider it that u are my 1st close ning friend

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i have many others but u are U and if u leave

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there will b a space which no one can fill

 (7/2/11 1:44):

u r my frnd n u will be

these are some lines sent to me by someone. Some love from that someone ...even i remained invisible to her after quitting my sites. yet she sent these beautiful pearls to me..I love u too my dear...:) You all will remain in my heart..Always:)

I Love You Tayyaba. .

All day passed in weeping hiding my face in a blanket. No beam of light was around. I was unable to see people who are visible,. My family. . .My Allah was around like always..i cried infront of him and asked for mercy. All day i kept asking and He remained silent. He was looking at me I Know he is with me.HE was sitting with me,watching me crying. But i wanted him to say something. I felt headache ,fever, my eyes were burning but my Allah remained silent He didnt say even a single word..Then i saw a little beam of light, coming from my right side, i ignored..but i felt a beautiful voice calling me, i checked a name was shining on my mobile screen,..tayyaba. I was unable to read properly. I thought my senses are decieving me after people. But i was wrong. My senses are still mine..that was tayyaba's call:) a light was in my darkness. How it can be possible , to whom i love, they leave me when i down...? I didnt pick up her call.. She kept calling me, i was feeling if i ll talk to her ill loose my control. I didnt want to make her more worried about me. Ghalti krny waly ko bta to dty hen k ucka qasur kaya hy? A msg came from her side. . . .my eyes again started to cry. .she again called and said i beg u pick up call. . .tayyaba my dear. . .i love u. .i know you got angry . Men mana lo g. .hm dnu hmesha lartay thy na. But today i want to fight with a person whom i talked alot.whom i always said ILOVEU. .my Atti. Nig's atti. Nig's soulmate.wo jo mry kahay bina sb jan jati hy.She got angry today, that why i quit everything? Atti. . .koi apna ghar chup chap kb chorta hy?? Tab na when he is dead. . . . . . . . . . ????

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Mujee Bud Duaa lag gae hy...

How She Smiled...:)

Today morning she wake up with tears. She said to mom.."Khala feeling vomiting". Ami taken her to the lounge and asked her to take deep breathing. she did same but in few moments she was complaining same thing.  I awoke said fajar and recited Quran and looked at her. Her expression was just like that she is near to cry. I talked to her but her expressions were same. I taunted why u looking sad? whats wrong now? d't know Aapii why i am feeling this.her voice was distorted. Change your expressions. This d't look good on ur face. I asked her. She started weeping. My mother  got worried asked what happened suddenly? .."khala dil ghabra rha hy"She replied while weeping okay ill take you to the Doctor after breakfast. Mom was trying to relax her. I was listening and watching all.. no need to take her to the Doctor. She is okay. She was weeping last night now all her body parts are upset because she was upset. Now her stomach didn't work properly. food is not digested properly. she just need to be happy. Only in this way her body parts will start work properly. I said all with loud voice. She was looking at me. Get up also i switched of T.V. Rice and Asif (Ansar brother) was watching cricket Match. Tell ur aapi Ansar how to play cricket.I asked to my cousin and brother they got happy i lead them in the courtyard . There we started to play cricket. Initially she was hesitating.When i given bat in her hand she started playing. I was doing fielding. Rice was bowling her. She was playing and i was watching her continuously. Gradually her feeling was getting better. Once she hit the ball and it went over my head and hit badly Asif 's face. She laughed so loudly. It was really amazing for me it happened so sudden her smile was given relief to me. As I myself was worried what to do why she is behaving in this manner. I made her not even smiled but she laughed at her act when she hit Asif's face with her shot. Few minutes ago she was weeping badly and i was worried why she is feeling depress in morning. I said Thanks to Allah he is helping me in my all efforts what im doing for her. Wish I could make all people smile who are depress or they need help. wish i could be always there to help them

Phir Yu Hua k Gher ko Dil sy Laga lya

Tujh se bichar k hum b muqadar k ho gaye..
Phr jo b darr mila,usi darr k hogaye..
Phr younh hoa k ghair ko dil se lga lia..
Andar wo nafratien thee k bahar k hogye..
Kya loag thay k jan se bhrh k aziz thay
Ab dil se mehav nam b aksar k hogye
Aye yad e yar tujh se kraien kya shikaiyten,
Aye dard e hijer hum b tu pather k hogye!

Log Kehtay Hen. . .

These days spending with my cousin.she came to my home on my call. It was strongly needed to call her as her condition was very pathetic. . Psychologically she developed symptoms of conversion disorder.If i concern about her history, her past life was favorable to convert her health in this psychological problem.She is my khala's daughter.. (Afsana's sis). . .Her name z ansar. .Ansar birth order is 3rd.Afsana's 2nd. And eldest was saima.Saima died few years ago.saima was 1year elder to me.My khala was living in a village when saima was alive.There was no facility of health and schooling in that village.Saima's death was because of polio disease.When she died her left body was paralyzed.Her death was very painful for her family.As when she died it was night.Her condition was bad.All of her siblings were sitting around her bed.She was crying'my khala ws sitting at her head side.Other were sitting besides and reciting surah yaseen.Saima's sibling were also crying.khaloo was tearful but he was seeking for ambulance.But he failed to safe her daughter's life. Saima died in her mom's arms that night.Ansar, afsana saw this moment of death when they were so young. being so young and to see sister death was not so easy . this left very bad image on their minds. saima's death broke my khaloo into pieces. he couldn't get well after his beloved daughter.there was no source of income after khaloo's illness. Days passed and Ansar was sent to my nana jaan's home she started her schooling there.She passed her metric. Then her mom came and said to her we have to move to te pindi to get jobs as khaloo was unable to bear expenses of his family. Ansar and khala and others salma and Asif also left the village for their bright future. Ansar started job but didn't left her studies. She carried on her studies with the job. little salma refused to study further. Ansar taken this matter serious she forced her sis to keep her studies with the job. but it was not possible to insist her for studies. so Ansar stopped her further efforts. All these circumstance weakened her nerves. As the days was passing the power to bear family troubles was reduced. Afsana was engaged to my cousin in those days. but my cousin couldn't fulfill his commitment with afsana. He got married with another lady in Attock. This was another jerk to that family. Ansar again taken this issue very serious. She started hating people especially relatives and maternal side. Whenever i tried to tell her that you are wrong she said yes aaappi we wrong thats why all people do wrong with us. My sis saima died no body felt responsibility to give their family any kind of support. Afsana's heart broken because we are poor.Despite of all these things luckily last year in December Afsana got married we all were very happy. Afsaana became a mother of two kids in this Ramdan  another good thing.but Ansar couldn't understand herself. She was sufferings from so many complexes. She couldn't clear her mind. I never thought that she will become so serious. Few days ago i saw my mom she was talking on phone. She seemed to be worried . I didn't ask I knew my mom will tell me herself if anything is troubling her. Next day i again saw her on phone she was talking to my khala. when phone ended mom told me Ansar eye sight is gone... I said what?? how it happened she said d't know. next day again khala called and said that her eye sight partially back. she can  see hardly anything, but huge things are visible to her. I thought there may be any medical reason. I didnt ask further. khala used to call mom daily. The very next day khala said i m taking her to the peer in SAHALA. Afsana referred khala to that peer.Ansar agreed to go there. That peer was fake. He said to khala, your daughter's body control is in control of a witch. that witch is married now she will never leave her. peer sahab was palmist too:) he checked ansar hand's lines and turned to khala and told her " your daughter have no fate.. her life have no happiness...she will have attack of palsy soon....".khala was silent. again peer sahab said she(ansar) is the one who is resposible of all of your(kahala's ) family troubles. khala didn't say anything she said koi elaaj peer sahab?? he wrote some taweez and given to khala and said give this her daily. but i see no improvment in her life. kahla came back and phoned to ami. Ami got worried and told all situation to me. i was angry on khala that why she taken her to that peer. at that time again phone rang mom picked up. khala was weeping she said Ansar screaming she is feeling numbness in her legs. ami said give phone to her. Ansar was crying badly. she got frightened because of that peer. i talked to her but she continuously crying and saying aappi..ill die what is my fault i didn't do anything why people are blaming me??? aapii my body is trembling my mind is totally blank im  having severe headache . i said nothing bad will happen .Your environment is making your condition bad. she stopped crying and said aapi people say here i have some kind of psycho problem. I said nooo my dear you are alright. you are so brave, you are earning and bearing your expenses yourself. you are courageous lady. She listened silently she said that why my body is out of control? and peeer sahab??? I said forget everything u just need to change ur environment. You are fighting like men. and this is against nature. God made men to earn money and made women to take care of her home. But you are doing so many things simultaneously and also some trouble of you life like afsana's issue and saima's death have stress upon ur mind.and now your body is reacting because of all  these stresses.During talk on phone i felt all my these comments were making her relax . Because her voice was getting clear. She replied okay aapi i'll come tomorrow i'll spend some days at your home. U'll treat me well because u know me well than any other person.Now she is living with me from one week. wish i could make her relax. as she trusted me and came from pindi. she is on leave from her company.Her owner and colleagues call her daily and asks abouit her health, they also says thanks to me that im helping her.May ALLAH bless her.Aameen

Rain..

What I am doing right now..Rainyday reminds so many things