Last night of 2010

Right now lying in my bed.Messaging to all my friends.Atti is continuosly texting me from morning.infact if i say she made my last day of this year memorable then it wont be wrong.i'm focusing on to reply her first than any other friend.so many things we shared.Her image in my mind is just like a sober lady going ahead but looking back with tears.i found so many resemblance in me and her life.she came close to me when i need a true friend in khariyan.Although she was 1year junior to me in college.i was her sis tayyaba's classfellow.yet atti came closer to me day by day.i always say thanks to Allah that HE gave me a true friend atti.we have so many similarties.atti thinks like me.but one flaw in me.i cant give words to my feelings and thinkings like atti.she express her feelings so nicely.i like her purity.one thing i came to know that our pains and sorrow are similar too;( atti often says this to me nigz hmesha dair kr dti houn men. . .and i always said to her esa kuch nhe atti..but i never told her that i believe in this poem alot infact if i talk about myself my life experiences clearly shows that in many situations i was too late.i lost so many things and people because i was late often. ....and today i have lost 2010.. no good event happened in 2010. yet i am hopeful for the next year that is starting after few hours. My good wishes for all. May this 2011 brings happiness and good for all my friends , strangers and for my beloved homeland.Aameen.Pakistan zindabaad

Pr ye na hoga mjsy mn ucko bhol jaon. .

Jitna bhi us ko sochoon,utna hi door Paon..
Jitna bhe us ko chahun, khud hi Bikherti jaon.

Main Aam si Musafir Be-aas Be-sahara,
Wo door Basnay wala, ik Aasmaan ka Tara.

Main Rait se Ulajhti Sehraaon ki hawa hoon
Wo saahilon pe chalta Baad-e-saba ka jhonka

Haan farq to Bohat hy

Per Baat ye Faqat hy

Main laakh toot jaon

Khud hi se Rooth jaon..

Per ye na ho ga Mujh se..

Ke Main us ko bhool jaon..

Yaar Dadhii Ishq Aatisshh laiee hy....Vey Dost Sanoo lag gaee be-akhtyaariii

19th July..Birthday of my brother(rice)

Rice(Nasir) my brother was born in 19th July..here i'm wishing him his birthday..Although he can't read this, yet its my wish to write something for this day..this will show my love for him..as said by astrologers those who born in 19th July they are born king..they have dominant personality..and its true for rice he is very intelligent, innocent, dominant personality, active, cute and ofcourse my brother, a king:)

My dearest brother
Today is your birthday
Knowing that you will be turning another year old

Time has change over the years
Even though we will not spend much time together
Still you are my brother
Someone who will be there in time of need
I am grateful to have you as a brother

May you enjoy this blissful day
And many happiness that will come your way
Because today is your birthday
Thanks for being the brother that you are

Happy birthday brother, I love you.

Agar kabhee meri yaad aee...

Agar kabhi meri yaad aae...
Tu chaand raatoon ki naram dil geer rooshni mein..
Kisi sitare ko deekh lena..
Agar wo nakhale falak se ud kar..
Tumhare qadmoon mein aan gire..
Tu ye jaan lenaa....!!!!
Wo ista'ra tha mere dil ka...
Agar na aae...
Magar ye mumkin he kis tarah hai,
k tum kisi pe nigah daalo...
Tu us ki deeware jaan na toote..
wo apni hasti na bhool jaae...
Agar kabhi meeri yaad aae..!!!
Gureez karti hoi hawa ki lehroon pe haath rakhna...
Main khusbo'on mein tumhein miloon ga..
Mujhe gulaaboon ki pat'tiyoon mein talash karna..
Main aoos qatroon k aayin'on mein tumhein miloon ga..
Agar sitaroon mein, aoos qatroon mein,
khusbo'on mein na pao mujh ko..
Tu apne qadmoon mein dekh lena..
Main gard hooti musafatoon mein tumhein miloon ga..
Kahein pe rooshan charaagh deekho tu jaan lena..
K har patange k saath main bhi sulag chuka hoon..
Tum apne haathoon se in patangoon ki khaak darya mein daal dena..
Main khaak ban kar sumandaro'on mein safar karoon ga..
Kisi na dekhe hue jazeere pe ruk kar tum ko sada'ein doon ga..
Sumandaroon ke safar pe niklo..........
Tu us jazeere pe bhi utarna..!!!!

Wish

"Parr nhe tootay pr jee toota tha"

"Parr nhe tootay pr jee toota tha"

Hawa kuch buri na the..

Parr abi tootay na thy..

Qafas ka dar band na tha..

Kitnay din raat guzray thy...

Jeewan ik pinjra tha chiryaa ka..

Gilla usny kia na ghuttan ka na qufal ka...

Yeh kya hua k wo urti na theee....

Dana chugti the na pani peeti thee..

Tuk tuk aasman ko dekhti the...

Urnay ka shoq tha na arman tha..

Urna jaanti bhe the chiryaa..

Parr nhe tootay pr jee toota tha...

"Parr nhe tootay pr jee toota tha"

Ab to khafa nhe ho....

Ab to khafa nhe ho....?

Mein ny shab-e-hijraan k sab..

Sitaaray apnay daman men chun liye hen...

mein ny chaman sy khizaan k....

Bikhray huye pattay ke churmurahat ko...

Ik Geet likh diya hy...

Mein ny shab ke larazti hue..

Dam torti hue loo ko garmi ataa ke hy...

Mein ny saahil sy takraany wali...

Lehroon ko apni ungliyoon sy choo kr...

Zakhmi zakhmi kr diya hy...

Ab to khafa nhe ho........?

Mein ny "Chaandni" ke thandak ko mitaa diya hy....

Mein ny aaiyenay ka her aks mitaa diya hy....

Mein ny tum ko bhulaa diya hy....

Ab to khafa nhe ho.........?

1st July..

Birthday of someone.Once this 1st July gifted him tears for whole life. Two years back, on 1st July an event filled many lives with sadness and tears. but that event distributed pains unevenly among those lives. One among those lives blessed by Allah and he found a way to get rid of these pains. Remaining lives accepted pains and tears for life time given by that horrible event. They are still trying to heal their wounds. but now it is of no use. eyes has addicted to darkness and tears. No one can see the wish for lightening in their eyes. This post is dedicated to the person who was born in 1st July and was wounded by 1st July. And now living with frozen tears..........
Kisi bhe waqt
Kisi sy
Koi tawaku bhe rakho
K ain mumkin hy
Saba chataktay Gul ko Raakh ker jaaye
Pawan chaly to darkhton men aag lehraye
Ghatta sulagtay banno ko laho sy bher jaye
Pahar ronay lagen
Behar khushk honey lagen
Ajeeb ehd-e-pareshaan hy,kuch khyal rahay,
Kisi bhe waqt koi bhe shakhs rooth skta hy
"Wafa ka rishta kisi bhe waqt toot skta hy"

Tearz rolling out‏ ‏while reading thz:(‎

Sari dunya k rivajon se adawat ki thi...
Tumko Yad hai jab me ne ik HEMAQAT ki thi...
Usy razdan samj kr btaya tha hal-e-dil apna...
pr us shakhs ne mari zat se bagawt ki thi...
Jb ksi ki yadon ne ankhon ko bhigoya tha meri...
Me ne ek naam ki tasbeeh pe tilawat ki thi...
Us ko chor k hanstey howey ghar aa k...
Itna roey they k ankhon ne qyamat ki thi...
mary ujerny ka sabab jab b kisi ne pocha to..,
men ne bs itna btaya k "MUHABAT KI THI"...

سن تو سهى

Lo aaj bata doon men tum ko
Tum bim bhe jeena seekh lya
dhannak rang chunri mili na mujh ko
kala anchal oorh lya
kantay chubhay muje phoolo sy
gulshan men jana chor diya
jb rooth gaen baharain to
khazaon men maskan dhund lya
aankho men shabnam k moti
muskan saja kr honto pr
tum ko he nhe logo ko bhe
men ny dhoka dna seekh liya.......

ميري دعا..

Tuje ansuwon bhari wo dua milay, jisy kabi na rad khuda kry,
tje hasrat na rhy janat ki,
tery angan may muhabton ki aisi hawa chaly,
tu khushbo ki tarah mahky khuda kry,
tjy wo kuch milay jis ki tu dua kry,
chahat ki barish may tu bheeg bheeg jaye,
qismat may teri khuda aise wafa kry...
Ameen...

.....magar ik charagh jala nhe.....

Dar o baam sab nay saja lye sbhi roshni mein naha lye

Meri ungliyan bhi jhulas gayeen magar ik charagh jala nahi

Pas e karvan sar e rah guzar mein shikasta paa hun tau is lye

Kay qadam tau sab sy mila lye mera dil kisi sy mila nahi

Mera humsafar jo ajeeb hai tau ajeeb tar hun mein aap bhi

Mujhy manzilon ki khabar nahi usy raaston ka pata nahi....!!!

Lala's choice..Chal inshaa apnay gaon mn

Yahan ujly ujly roop Boht

Pr asli km, Behrop Boht

Us pairr k nechy kia rukna

Jhan saya km ho, dhoop Boht

Chal Insha apny gaon men

Bathen ge sukh ki chhaon mn

kion tèri ankh sawali hai

Yahan hr ik Bat nirali hay
Is dais Basèra mat krna

Yahan muflis hona gali hai

Chal Insha apny gaon mn

Jahan sachy rishty yaron k
Jahan ghonghat
zèwar naron k
Jahan Jharny komal sur waly
Jahan saz Bajèn Bin taron k

Chal insha apny gaon mein..

Chaand madham hy aasman chup hy..

Chand madham asman chup ha,
Nend ki goud mai jahan chup ha,
Dur wadi mai dudhya badal,
Jhuk k parbto mai chup rha ha,
In baharon k saye mai aa ja,
Phr mhbt jawan rhy na rhy,
Zndge kal tilak mehrban rhy na rhy,
Roz ki tarah aj bhe tare,
Subah ki grd mai na kho jaen,
Aur tere gham mai jagte ankhen,
Kam sy kam aik rat so jaen,
Chand madham ha asman chup ha,...
Nend ki goud mai jahan chup ha...

Keep hurting me...

I want to check my stamina. People are with full hands of thorns,and they keep teasing me..those who call "munafiq"to others,they themselves d''t know the meaning of this word.In my dictionary"Life is never about the people who act true in front of you...It is always about the people who remain true behind you....Im still unable to see such a person in my life. I wont comment here about me.people act like dual personality..but some people have multiple personalities. For different people they wear different face mask.. Still they say doors are closed.. No no doors never closed.they still open but now for "man pasand" . "Door might be open...is another wrong concept.doors of heart can never be open if once they are closed..if one say now door is close and it might be open or it will be open later...it means they have surity that new comer will come inside soon..i'm silent over their thinkings and mentality. They are always irritator for those who are not their "manpasand". They think and act in a way and assume that silent people cant see anything..they think"aankh oojhal,pahar oojhal" but pahar is still there..having another sight on the world..silence does'nt mean that everything is calm..to know the truth by digging is very painful.. But it is better than to remain happy in the world of stupids, who take everything in their own way..remained always away from reality.. I preferred to get hurt by knowing the truth.. And some people are continuously hurting me..."men is nafrat ke akhri hud dekhna chahti hn"...r nafrat phelany sy nafrat he milti hy...people should stop thinking that by giving thorns they ll get flowers... And from me they ll get only silence.. The land where i planted the flowers,that land is now covered with walls and the door within the walls are closed forever. It will remain close till my death..everyone knows flowers can't survive without water,and air..after the death of flowers ,land also has become barren..no life in that..hay kuch esi hee baat jo chup hoon..

My mithoo left me:(

Yar koi esy bhe chor k jata hy????? u made me sad..u made me cry...u didn't think even once that when ill see ur cage empty how much pain ill feel??? u didn't think even once???? u never liked cage... few days ago when i put u on cage u tried alot to come outside from the cage..after struggle of 2 hours when u opened the door of cage .. i came to u to put u again in cage.. but i was shocked to see... ur body was wet with blood..all ur feathers and feet having red blood on them...i was stirred at that time that how it is happened?? then i felt that u tried to open the door with ur feet. and by doing this u injured urself.. i was very sad at that time.. I carried u at that time and kissed u...i never did such a love to animals..but at that time i couldn't control..i felt tears in my eyes..but strange there was no feelings of pain in ur face... u were quite satisfied... and was calm and happy..i cleaned ur face and feathers with wet cotton..after that day i didn't put u in that cage..because i had come to know that for freedom u can do anything .u remain happy outside..i gave u so much time... but u always did response only to rice's voice..u never answered me even once... now today u even left my home...i knew already that parrots are unfaithful. but still i spent so much time with you. when u came to our home u were unable to eat.now when u have learned all u left this world.:( in this pic u r looking innocent.. but u betrayed me...:( why all mithoos are alike??? i couldn't upload the picture of ur dead body..for me will alive for ever.. u cant die.. u will live in my thoughts... :(

Baray logo ke bari batein....

Kisi ne Allama Iqbal se pocha "aqal ki intiha kya hy?"

jawab mila: "Hairat"

phir pocha gaya:
hairat ki intaha?
Jawab mila '' ishiq
"ishq ki intiha kya hy?"

farmaya: "Ishq la intiha hy, es ki koi intiha nahi"

sawal karne wale ne kaha: "magar aap ne likha hy,
'tere ishq ki intiha chahta hon''

aap ne muskura kr kaha: "dosray misray me apni ghalti ka aitraaf b kya hy k
"Meri saadgi dekh kya chahta hon":-)

Some words by Lala..

Kbi sochta k mai khuch kahun,
Kbi sochta hun keh mai chup rahun,
Admi jo khta ha,admi jo sunta ha,
Zndge bhr vo sadaen pecha krti han,
Admi jo leta ha admi jo dta ha,
Zndge bhr vo duaen pecha krti han,
Koe b ho hr khawb scha nai hta,
Boht ziada pyar b acha nhe hta,
Kbi daman churana ho tu mushkil ho,
Pyar k rishtay toten tu,pyar k rasty choten tu,
Rasty mai phr wafaen pcha krti han,
Kbi kbi mann dhup k karan tarasta ha,
Kbi kbi phr jhoom k sawan brsta ha,
Palak jhpkay,
Yahan mosam bdl jae,
Pyas ghat'ti nhe,
Ik buund mlti nhe,
Aur phr kbi rim jhim ghtaen pecha krti han,
Admi jo khta ha....
Admi jo sunta ha....

Hawaa udaye k tum udao....

Talu_e_shams_e_mufaraqat ha,
Purani Kirnen Naye Makanon K Angono Mai Laraz Rahe Han,

Faseel_e_shehr_e_wafa Ke Rozan Chamkte Zaro'on Sy Bhr Gae han,
Gaye Dinu Ki Aziz Baaten Nigar Subahen Gulab Raten,
Bisaat_e_dil b Ajeb shay ha hazar jiten Hazar Maten,
Tum Apni Ankhn Mai jhlmilaty hoay Sitaron Ko Mout Dy Do,
Gae Ruton Ke Tmam Pholon Tmam kharo ko Mout Dy Do,
Naye Safar ko Hayat Bakhsho,
Keh Pchli Raho Py Sbt Jtny Naqsh_o_Paa han,
Vo Baar Hon Gen,
Hava Udaey K Tm Udao...

Thee adawat he bhari jn k dilo k andar..

Thay shanasa bhe kai halqa-e-aghyar k sath...
Ho gae dushmani unko meri raftar k sath...

Thee adawat hee bhari jin k dilo k andar...
Muj ko aye thy samjhany wo baray pyar k sath...

Kitnay majboor thy hum apni wazaa k hathoo...
Hum nibhatay hen murawat bhe tery yaar k sath....

Hum ny mangee nhe bheek muhabat ke kabhi....
Zindaa rakhe hy anaa hum ny isi haar k sath...

Jo maseeha hy wo yeh bat bhulaa deta hy...
Talkh gooie nhe ache kici bemaar k sath....

..Mera Her Lafz Rota Hai....

Yehi wada lia tha na,
Hamesha khush hi rehna hai,
Lo dekho! dekh lo a k,
Meri ankhon ko dekho tum,
Ye kitni shokh lgti hain,
Mere honton ko dkho tm,
Hamesha muskuratay hain,
Koi b gham agr aya,
Use hans kr saha main ny,
Mery chahray ko dkho tm,
Hamesha pursakon ho ga,
Kia tha main ne jo tm se,
Wo wada kr dia pura,
Mgr ik bat hai pyare,
Kabi jo wakt mil jae,
To meri shayari parhna,
Tmhain mehsos tu ho ga,
Kahin talkhi bhara lehja,
Kahin pe sard sa lehja,
Kahen pe dard ki jheelain,
Kahen lahje ki krwahat,
Suno!
Main khush to hun lekin,
Mera Hr Lafz Rota Hai.

I love to be Alone

Tuje dhundta hun men ko-ba-ko...

Kabhi is nagar tujhy dekhna kabhi uc nagar tujhy dhundna,
Kabhi raat bhar tujhy sochna,kbi raat bhr tujhy dhundna,

Mujy ja bja teri justju tujhy dhundta hun mai ko_ba_ko,
Kahan khul ska tery ru_ba_ru,mera ic qadar tujhy dhundna,

Mera khawb tha k khyal tha vo aroj tha k zawal tha,
Kabhi arsh par tjhy dkhna kbi farsh par tjhy dhundna.......

Kitna such hy yeh.....

Main ne us k badly lahjay ki wazahat poochi,

kuch dair khamosh raha,

phir muskura k bola,


''PAGAL''

Jab Lehjay badal jayen to wazahatain kaisi...?

Wo Khudaa..Meri zaat k andar mla muje..

Gardish k baad zaat ka mehvar mila mujhy ..
Jis se nikal gaya tha wohi ghar mila mujhy ..

Zarray k aik juz se khula raaz-e-kayenaat,
Qatray ki wussaton mein samundar mila mujhy ..

Kitni ajeeb baat hai jo chahta tha mein,
Qismat se us tarha ka muqaddar mila mujhy ..

Main tha k kaifiyaat k pardon mein qaid tha,
Wo tha k her lihaz se khul kar mila mujhy ..

Dunia ki wussaton mein Usey dhoondta raha,
Lekin wo KHUDA meri zaat k andar mila mujhy ..!!!

Aey raat dhal jaa k tbyat udas hy..

Right now lying in my bed..today was v.painful day..but God showered his blessing(rain) on my city in evening..it was v.beautiful rain..lighting,clouds, n night..i recorded the voice of rain ,clouds roaring, and of wind blowing..yeh sb mje bht acha lgta hy..1thing more i like that z to wear open shoes in summers..but inspite of this likeness i always preferred to wear coat shoes.even when i was in wah i didn't use sendals...except parties always i used the shoes with tassel.Today i went to DUA n i worn off white open shoes.Residents liked that 1st time i used open sandals in DUA.when i was coming back to home..my foot caught by iron rods in van..and by releasing my foot from that broken iron rods i got 3 cuts..also when foot was in that rods..and i was trying to release that my body went imbalance. At that time my hand also hurt with another iron stand.ahhh ami g.everyone of van saw my foot .bleeding was started..I came to home.abu was sleeping and ami was not at home.I offered juma 's namaz and went asleep..after getting up i made lunch for me.when ami entered in home at 4p.m i called her in loud voice...amiiiii. Ami reached to lounge and asked kya hua?i shown her my foot.she got worry and asked yeh kya kiya.i said i did nothng..it happened in van..mom said abu kahan hen tmhry?tmhen lay k q nhe aye? I said he was sleeping and was not picking up my call.mom said beta abi to tmhra bukhar b nhe utra r tm chot lgwa lie..ami ke bat sy yad mje bukhar bhe to aa rha hy kucd din sy..yes i am having fever from one week.today i was better so i went to DUA and brought cuts on my heel..the 1st day when i got fever nobody was at home.only rice was with me.All were went to village..fever came along with vomitings n stomach pain..the day before i ate koftay.that didn't suit me :(.only chicken suits my body. Rest are forbidden for me..at that day when i was with high pain n fever.i even couldnt sit..nobody was coming in mind to whom i can ask to bring medicine.at 11 a.m i phoned to my student Ammara that plz bring medicines for me..nobody at home.and rice is small he cant go to market alone..she went with her father to bazar n brought medicines for me.when she came i was asleep..she came near to me but didnt wake me up..after an hour when i felt some1's presence in my room..I opened my eyes..i saw rice and ammara was looking at me.she smiled n asked ma'am are u ok?her smile taken away all my pain..i forgot fever..she z so caring n sweet.she even can read my thoughts sometimes.she acts in way what i like...i also can read thoughts of others from their conversation..from their behavior...people decieve me.i understand.but i d't show it..i act like other feels that he z successful in deceiving.same happened today.i was decieved but i reamaind quite.i gathered my courage...bolnay sy hota b kya?kici ke nature to nhe bdal skty..and found answers of all my questions.even that person didn't tell me..but at the end one thing was embarrasing me.Allah was looking with furious eyes.and said "ab aaram aa gya" and i could say only this "sorry Allah " : (

Men pagal..ajke shaam... yeh poetry aey shaam try naam,

Wo jazbon ki tijarat thi ye dil kuch aur samja
Usey hansney ki aadat thi ye dil kuch aur samja

Mujhey us ne kaha aao nai dunia basatey hain
 Usey soojhi shararat thi ye dil kuch aur samja

Wo mere paas baitha dair tak ghazlain meri sunta
Usey khud se muhabbat thi ye dil kuch aur samja

*~innocent~*

Aj ke sham..buht dard mila.with tears writing this...

Mujhe bar bar sada na de
Meri hasrton ko hawa na de

Mery dil mein Aatish-e ishq hai
Meri aag tujko jala na de

Mera ishq hai meri zindagi
Mera ishq hai meri bandgi

Muje Ashiqon mein shumar kr
Muje Ashqi kq sila na äe

Main Gada nahi hon fakeer hon
Main Qlandron ka ameer hon

Muje tujse kuch nahi chahiye
Muje mangny ki ada na de

Muje dard-o soz-o gudaaz de
Muje apne ghum se nawaz de

Tera dard bhi mere dil mein ho
Muje dard-e-dil ki dawa na de..

Kahein tum...

Kahein tum apni qiSmat ka likha tabdeel kar latey,
T0 Shayad hum bhe apna faiSla tabdeel kar latey,

Agr hum waqai kam h0oSla h0tey muhabt mein,
T0 Marz barhny Se pehly hi dawa tabdeel kar latey.

Tumhary Sath chalny pr j0 dil razi nahi h0ta,
Buhut pehly hum apna raSta tabdeel kar latey.

Tumhari tarha jeenay ka hunar ata t0 phir Shayad,
Makaan apna w0hi rakhtay pata tabdeel kar latey...!!!

A friend sent me thz beautiful poetry..

Zameen pe Chal Na Saka Aasmaan se bhi gaya,

Katta k Par Wo Parinda Urraan se bhi gaya,

Tabah kar gai Pakkay Makaan ki Khwahish,

Main Apny Gaaon k Kachy makan se bhi gaya,

Parai aag mai bhi jal ker kaya mila tujh ko,

Usy bacha na saka or apni jan se bhi gaya,

Bhulana chaha to us ki bhi intaha ker di,

Wo shaks ab mary wahmo_guman se bhi gaya,

Kisi k hath se nikla howa wo teer hoon main,

Haddaf ko chu na saka or kaman se bhi gaya........
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it touched my heart...it was said by a person of a story i read last day..that person was dying..his last words made me cry

Muje Bazm-e-daer sy ly chal ...
to phir ek baar izn dy..
ay lehad sy loat k aa skon...
teray dar py aa k sada karon..
tuje ghamgusar ke ho talab...
to teray hazoor men aa raha houn..
yeh na ho to...
sooye-e-adam men phir ek bar rawan hon....

Clouds..i shot this image in morning..after rain still clouds are in sky..I love such a view in summers

Last Night...:-(

Before writing anything here I wanna say when i wrote title of this post..I mistakenly wrote Nigah instead of Night..It happened with me many times..those things I try to avoid them they again appears and gives pain..similarly some people I avoid them but d't know why they planned to hurt me at any cost???? last night I couldn't sleep I cried alot.. Because i avoided something but that something had planned to destroy or ruin me..and they did it..I asked Allah last night why u created garbage(me)??? but at God's side there was silence...I often experienced this whenever I asked question to all those I loved..Whatever I asked to them my question never satisfied..same case was last night..God didn't answered of even my single Question. I even asked to Allah why ur people hurt me badly???A girl thrown pebbles on my face..????? I avoided her but she never left a chance to hurt me...A girl for whom I killed NIGAH..that girl even didn't consider my this effort..that with Nigah this girl will also die..n i'm dead now..but still she is cursing my dead body...i didn't eat and talk to anybody from last day..I remained in bed all day..hide my face in blanket..n wept all day n night..I deserve it(right now i heard this line from some1 ).. still eyes are full of tears while writing this post.. One thing I said to Lala I can't be expressive..its not in my nature..men sb kuch bazari logo ke tarah bahar latka nhe skti...No one can see what i think..or how much I have divided into pieces...nor I'll allow others to see how much I am in pain..only that person can know about my feeling who will cross the walls that I built around me.........

I made this sketch..;-)

I made this sketch..when I started my study today..but when I opened my book ,,,i felt sad so i thought to make Sketch instead of study book..this z not perfect..but I like it.. because it made my sadness memorable...

sitting in my room.....Thinking...

Everyone has asleep...i am on vustudents site..so many students working and chatting in ning site...its too cold here,,, im just watching people working and talking to each other...I read something ...n still im in shock...i'll only say one thing about myself...its a stanza..

samandaro ko bhe herat hoi k doobtay wakt...

kisi ko hm nay madad k lye pukara nhe.......

this describes me to some extent...I d't like to ask anybody that i am in trouble,help me, or u cheated me..u shouldn't do like this...u hurt me... I think when ill say such a words to anybody..it'll be my insult...i can't afford my insult...so I always avoided to say such a lines..

....people say everything in a single line...but still they say they said nothing.... thinking only this.....................