No one is responsible for my tears..........

I am writing this post...when i am so broken....so much restless.. I am feeling that I myself isresponsible for my sorrows and tears...No one is responsible...I wont blame to anyone...It was my bad luck..I had to feelpain...I had to weep...I had to bear interference of so many people in my life....God written all these things in my life...so why i say that people estroyd my life...somethings are not for us...But when we insist to get it...we expect from other which others d't have...then we get hurt,,,and blame others....its totally my reponsibility that i expected alot from many people...but always i hurted...so if i say that all are responsible for my tears..then its totally wrong...I should realise that this world is not for me...people of this world are different from me...then why i expected alot from other...I myself destroyed my life...often people say this shehla buht jaldi naraz ho jati hy...yes its true...but it has one reason...I have some wishes ..some desires...I expect from others...when i feel that others are going away from me...I stepped back from that person so that my others expectation couldn't get hurt....they might safe...I couldn't get more pain from that person... I want to safe myself....I have suffered from biggest pain of my life...still suffering...tears daily meet me...Only tears made me relax...but still i want to avoid them...still i want to behappy....its mymistake only....